Tuesday, September 27, 2011



saya tak berapa pandai berkawan. (definisi kawan juga subjektif sebenarnya kan.)
bagi saya seorang kawan rapat sudah cukup. 

saya tak berapa suka ber"angkat-angkat"
tidak pernah ada istilah itu dalam kamus hidup 

saya tak berapa suka ke tempat ramai
sebab saya suka seorang-seorang

isolate diri

orang boleh kata itu semua

"janji saya tidak bercakap pasal orang saya anggap orang tidak bercakap pasal saya"

tapi saya ramai kenalan
untuk senyum bertegur sapa dan bersalaman
setakat itu boleh dikatakan

kenapa ye?

memori zaman kanak-kanak - kawan baik di rampas- bolehlah dikategorikan sebagai faktor penyumbangnya

saya banyak cakap, tapi saya memang kurang bercakap bila bab luahan perasaan sebab saya rasa tiada orang yang boleh untuk saya luah.

dan sebenarnya bila saya meletakkan dinding dengan orang lain, ia juga penyekat kegembiraan. tapi tak apa, dah biasa =)

dan saya sangat menghargai insan ini yang tegar dengan karenah saya:

- mai = yang duduk sebelah sejak dari sem 1 hingga sem 6
-kak maziah-yang bagi tidur katil dia dan dengar komen2 saya
-yana- ada benda kita satu kepala
-mahirah-yang jadi tukang dengar, tukang komen, tukang nasihat sepanjang dari matrikulasi hingga sekarang
-alang+kak uti + kak ina- partner bising sama-sama
-gyah- yang jadi kawan baik sangat-sangat dari form 2 hingga sekarang
-kak za- akak yang banyak bagi nasihat

maaf ye

buat kamu- saya tak berapa pandai berkawan


mereka-mereka ini tiada dengan saya. tapi dah biasa =)

dan selamanya saya ada ALLAH.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

a moment in a journey

we have a journey today. 

3 of us. 

since the destination is about 2 hours , we have a discussion and shared many thing 

(though i do not listen many things since i do sleep almost of the time ). 

the driver told us, do not love someone more than we love Allah. 100 % is just for Him the Almighty. even, they are our friends, lovers, husband also child. same goes to the wealth, the money that we have. HE is the ONE more than everything. ALLAHU RABBI.

it is either we do spend our time for makruf or mungkar eyh.

i do listened while nodding my head, i felt sleepy. 

we stop for a while at the Petronas, bought gardenia for our breakfast. the journey continue. there are  many things that we have discussed, and unfortunately, there are some point i do forget.

we arrived at the destination, meeting many peoples. then a sister give us her talk,

"hassan al-banna said: do not let every single  moment in our life without thinking about ISLAM ". then she looked at me and my friends, then she continued:

"especially for you , the youngsters"

where is our money goes to? how do we spend our time, energy, knowledge?

"Who is it that would loan Allah a goodly loan so He may multiply it for him many times over? And it is Allah who withholds and grants abundance, and to Him you will be returned" ~ 2:245

it is just a piece of a moment in a journey that almost all the time i do sleep in the car. 

keep sharing =)

Friday, September 23, 2011


when i was young (now is still young ) i mean when i was in primary school even my secondary school, cooking is not my interest. maybe, due to my mum is a housewife, everything that we ate, she prepared it for us, or maybe because of i do not really like to cook.

time passing by,

cooking becoming more fun. seriously.


- maybe it is the normal development for a women eyh?
- maybe because of i do live on my own, at rumah sewa that have a kitchen
- maybe because i love to eat???

whatever it is cooking is interesting =) ~ ignore the test first, the most important is INTEREST.

it is simple, the essential is onion, garlic then you an add anything...main campak-campak je! 
don't forget salt/sugar/asam jawa...

cooking is just like try and error.

it also need experience. day by day we can improve eyh.


oh, we can create our own recipe with the campak-campak style you know...

we have al-maiidah~ have a look at it eyh =)

my teacher had told me, "the one who make the food that i cooked is ALLAH, i'm just cook it..."

it is 'AQIDAH! believing that ALLAH that make the food tasty, not because the one who cook it..

credits to Puan Hani who thought me! 

oh, don't forget to make do'a before and eat. =)

people say, wife's cooking can make her husband love her more!!!!


Wednesday, September 21, 2011

ta daaa....simple random note for you and for me

bismillahhi wal hamdulillah



i'm doing good alhamdulillah,being silent but nit so silent anyway, since the fb is already updated. hehe. 
jb treat me well too. somehow,  i miss puncak alam. (more than i can describe!)

thanks allah for give me chance to visit puncak alam last week, even though it's just a short visit. superficially puncak alam is just the same, but deep inside there were changes happened. 
remember this : attaubah : 51

congratulations to my beloved alang. she became a wife at 5th syawal, 3 september. hehe. (i'am her pengapit y'all). heh. but it's kind of funny when i see the picture (me with "kipas pengantin"). but sorry , no picture available to show. (pengantin dengan pengapitnya sweet sangat, maka tak boleh dipaparkan. hehe)

alang, how i miss the time we were together. sob..sob...

and that time , i do feel that it is like kak anis was with us that day. 

dear you,

i hope that i can share many positive things with others. we share the beautiful world together eyh? insya allah.

dear you,

no one can choose how they were born. the family either rich or poor... the condition either healthy or ill...and etc.

one thing that we always forget, to be the one who always thanks Allah for the great life He gave us.

i see patients everyday, and how i try to not cry in front of them. i do cry in my heart, how much my heart burdened to see them and how much i am not thanks Allah for the all bless He gave me.

dear you, 

everything that we have, we just BORROW it. tiada hak milik kekal, hanya HAK MILIK SEMENTARA. 

dear you,

lets pray hard for our beautifull ending- husnul khatimah.

dear you,

lets go to JANNAH together??


i wish i am stronger, insya Allah.