Tuesday, November 9, 2010

missing her...

Satu Rindu

Album : Semesta Bertasbih
Munsyid : Opick Feat Amanda
http://liriknasyid.com


Hujan teringatkan aku
Tentang satu rindu
Dimasa yang lalu
Saat mimpi masih indah bersamamu

Terbayang satu wajah
Penuh cinta penuh kasih
Terbayang satu wajah
Penuh dengan kehangatan
Kau ibu Oh ibu

Alloh izinkanlah aku
Bahagiakan dia
Meski dia telah jauh
Biarkanlah aku
Berarti untuk dirinya
oh ibu oh ibu kau ibu

Terbayang satu wajah
Penuh cinta penuh kasih
Terbayang satu wajah
Penuh dengan kehangatan
Kau ibu

Terbayang satu wajah
Penuh cinta penuh kasih
Terbayang satu wajah
Penuh dengan kehangatan
Kau ibu oh ibu kau ibu
oh ibu oh ibu

Hujan teringatkan aku
Tentang satu rindu
Dimasa yang lalu
Saat mimpi masih indah bersamamu
Kau ibu kau ibu kau ibu


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Sunday, October 31, 2010

conteng...

Antara hobi saya,
sama ada di waktu lapang atau diwaktu sesak,
apa yang ada di tangan dan sekeping kertas reja atau nota, tepi-tepi yang kosong di isi dengan lukisan.
lukisan luahan, biar orang tidak memahami apa contengan itu, saya sudah berpuas hati kerana mampu meluahkan dengan bahasa yang saya senang.

pernah..
di dewan peperiksaan..oleh kerana kehabisan idea
@
berehat seketika dari menulis jawapan, tangan akan melukis apa yang bermai di fikiran..
hingga seorang pengawas peperiksaan berhenti dan bertanya..
kamu lapar ke???
(saya lukis burger, fries, air)

dulu-dulu...
hobi melukis sehingga membuat dialog cerita seperti komik..
cerita kanak-kanak mungkin...yang pasti saya sudah lupa apa objek utama ketika darjah satu @ dua dahulu...

tingkatan 3...
paling suka buat nota sains rantaian makanan...
rumput dimakan burung-burung dimakan helang
hanya kerana 1...dapat melukis binatang itu...

kini...
saya bukanlah pelukis terkenal,
atau mengambil jurusan seni...
tapi melukis tetap dekat di hati...
bagi mengekspresi diri..
apa yang muncul di fikiran..
apa yan menerewang di minda...


lihat nota saya...
penuh dengan contengan lukisan..
setiap helaian pasti punya cerita berbeza....

luahkan..
biarpun ianya tidak difahami...

lukiskan..
biarpun hanya engkau sahaja yang mengerti...

art therapy for me ^^


Saturday, October 30, 2010

tulis dan tulis

salam'alaik..

dalam mode tiada mood untuk menggarap, berceletoh, juga menaip... blurr....

nak kongsi doa ....

suka maksud doa ini....

"Ya Allah, tiada kemudahan kecuali sesuatu yang engkau jadikannya mudah, dan jika Engkau menhkehendaki maka yang sukar pun jadi mudah"...

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

vacuum cleaner for me =)

i wish i'll have a vacuum cleaner.

(siapa nak bagi hadiah hari lahir yang dah lepas @ akan datang boleh bagi saya ini ^^)

it will help me a lot for house cleaning.

you know, there are so many dusts and hairs on the floor.

oh, i'm sick of it. seriously!!

with this vacuum, it will help me a lot ..insya Allah.

but i do prefer lime green colour. please click at this link for further information .


i'm really wish for this....!!!!

affordable isn't it ???????

"cleanliness is part of faith - our beloved prophet Muhammad PBUH"

Monday, October 25, 2010

nanti baca lain kali sila ingat

oh okeyh..nak bagi tahu saya exam esok..dengan emosi yang kusut dan mata yang sedikit berair...baik...bakal berhujan nanti..sbb nanti bila leka lagi baca balik post sendiri ...biar beringat. enough said. sebab apa kenapa ? hanya dia yang tahu dan maha tahu dan tak mahu bagitahu kamu...huhuhu... cik saie..nape dop ngadap laptop ni....nota wat lapik siku je??? okeyh2..saie alih nota..sebab tak boleh fokus..hati kena mahu tenang dulu...mahu tenang????? carilah penyelaesaian dengan mencari kasih sayang Tuhan....cik saie...carilah kasih sayang Tuhan...dan saya mahu menumpahkan air mata dan melegakan hati saya ...
ingat ada tugas yang lagi besar menanti..ingat tue..ingat tue... (with a long sigh)..allahu robbi.

kesekian kali

mahukah rebah untuk kali kedua?
tidak cukupkah pengalaman pertama yang menyesakkan nafas dan telah banyak menumpahkan air mata??

mahukah merobek prinsip yang telah lama dipahat di hati?

bukankah ada tugas lagi besar dan berat taklifannya untukmu?

Monday, July 19, 2010

none could ever think that it could be this hard

al-fatihah...

untuk kakakku,,,
untuk sahabtku..
untuk teman juangku...
untukmu...
yang sentiasa di hatiku..
Anis Amirah Lutfi...18 julai 2010

lebih terseksa melihat yang ditinggalkan menangis sayu kehibaan, sedangkan diri tidak mampu membantu mengurangkan bebanan...
namun..ingatlah... aku sentiasa disisimu

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

just being me

salam'alaik...
i'm thinking of what is my blog's identity??... finally i've come out it with a conclusion that just "being me"... i do have my own private blog, private fb...but i'm always open the public one..many things happen but it is hard to me to spill it on the pages...and i'm just let it go...^^..gone with the wind..but remember it in my pray...
life is blessing the gift by Allah for us... we are weak but HE will be always by or side to keep us stronger.. ok..just Being Me..and keep imroving^^..when I look at the people..my friends aspecially,, they are better than me..
but again: "just being me"..
Allah's plan for me is the best story that I ever had...
might be my thoughts and what I do is different than others..but it is Ok as long as I'm not beyond His law of life...Islamic law and regulations are not for play..but it are the gift by Allah for us..the guide to come back to our eternal home...the home that we call Jannah..how pleasant that place is..
ustaz ridhauddin in his talk once told us..why do Allah sent Adam a.s and Hawa to jannah before sent both of them to Dunia???
it is because of Allah wants to tell us that...our true place is in JAnnah. subhanallah... =)..let's proud to be muslim...and trying to be the good one...
i'm not a good person and do not want to be the bad one too~~~

video

friends,,,this song might be not ur type..but it's inspiring...

"iaitu orang yang beriman dan hati mereka menjadi tenteram dengan mengingat Allah. Ingatlah hanya dengan mengingati Allah hati menjadi tenteram "-al-Ra'd(28)

keep step ahead dear..okeyh??

tell to yourself...while

put ur right hand to ur left shoulder...and pat ur left shoulder with ur right hand

awak-awak..mesti awak penat kan..

saya pun penat jugat..

tapi awak..takpe awk..

kita kuat....

awak-awak..kite usaha sama-sama ye awk..

awak-awak..

nangis tak pe awak..

tapi lepas tu..

tarik nafas...

do it again awk...

senyum awk...

satu dunia anak tengok awak..

jadi diri awak ea...

do the best for all

ok awak..

kita usaha awak..

Friday, July 9, 2010

happy study =)

salam'alaik...
already 2 weeks at Puncak Alam ...
ahlan wasahlan and wlecome to all new students to Uitm Puncak Alam...the end of the earth..^^..

Friday, June 18, 2010

kabare??

salam'alaik..
hey there???
kaifa halukum jmii'an??

its still holiday, but i'm already at kl (which mean Ampang - my ayah su's place), since that he and his family were back to kg., so sambil menyelam minum air, naik kereta A.su (which mean - save my pocket money)..money is really important!! naik star rex yang beau tu!

hmm..
i don't know how to start since many things happen (i'm not update dis blog since exam!)...
okeyh..
after the examination was finished..i went to kem semai simoi attending Program Kepimpinan Pelajar MPP & JPK until 15 hb of mei..then back to kelate just for two days ( cdeyh sgt )...but ..alhamdulillah..its worth because the whole day i'm at home (hambe jenis tak suke jalan unless i'm having a program or visit sedara mare...), the other day, i went to husm kubang kerian. 

after came back to puncak alam, we stayed at hostel- my friends and I (the JPK- College representative council) -we were done the key cheking- kami cek la 1-1 kunci bilik setiap rumah, loker and meja study....1 hour for 1 level....huuuh....fatiged and tanned!

then, MDS is coming (Minggu destini siswa- just for Asasi student)- the whole week is full with program-.....headache3 but it was really fun..

kak, tak cukup borang ni....
kak tandas kat mana...

every were you go, they will say Assalamu'alaikum for you...sweet kan that environment???
suke sangat and malu juge..(segan T_T)

back to kelate again, but, i'm not stay at home, i went to visit at husm kubang kerian....pi tengok therapist kat sane, pi jumpa patients juge! seronok ^^

4 days at husm is more than enough. my abah fetched me at my Ayah sir's house, and i went home...

so happy at home- jaga Fulloh (my youngest brother ^^),masak to diorang, sapu umah kemas umah-(mana yang larat ~ wat lar)

that's all- the story behind why i'am dissapear ^^

GTG,
wasslam-
peace for all-
miss saie
the light of precious happiness~~

Thursday, April 22, 2010

under construction

salam'alaik...
this blog is under construction....
mula-mula da dua header..
untuk menghilangkan header itu terpaksa membuang semua widget...
maka semua link-link blog hilang........
disebabkan tuan rumah sedang menghadapi imtihan...
rumah ini dibiarkan dahulu...
insya Allah bila dah habis straight 3 papers pada 26-28....
proses penambah baikan dan pembaik pulih akan di mulakan...
bittawfiq wannajah semua ^^
May Allah Bless.~

Friday, April 2, 2010

open your eyes heart and mind

salam'alaik
bismillahi walhamdulillah..
lama....laman in terbiar..cobwebs all over its wall!!
tuannnya sihat sahaja, alhamdulillah. cuma masa didepan laptop diperuntukkan untuk mencari bahan, manaip assignment, dan kemudiannya letih dah nak mancoret disini. bagaimana harus dimulakan topik hari ini?
tadi baca emel yang dihantar dulu-dulu...tak sangka gaya bahasa berubah..tidak sedar pun...people change, change for good alhamdulillah. setiap orang punya zaman jahiliyyah masing-masing bukan?
zaman tidak tahu dan tidak amik tahu...
ada ke orang yang jadi baik terus???
mungkin....
pasal tutup aurat misalnya....
semua orang maklum....tutup kecuali muka dan tapak tangan , right??
tapi kriteria lain contohnya: nipis ke tidak? longgar ke tidak? warnanya macam mana?
i'm really don't mind what do you want to wear..really i'm not..as long as.. it is the fashion according to our manual AL-QURAN & AS-SUNNAH. obvious and precise....
boleh je nak pakai seluar, janji longgar, tebal...elok pakai dengan baju selabuh lutut..
pakai tudung jarang tak?
nampak leher tak?
tutup dada ke tak?
baju pun sama, jarang tak?
longgar tak? stokin nipis ke tak?
even pakai tudung besar tapi nipis still tak cukup syarat bukan?
hm...pakaian solat: kain telekung pun sama...tetapati tak ciri-ciri tutup aurat..kita nak jumpa kekasih kita tu..ALLAH YANG MAHA BESAR.....
da tutup aurat dah ok ke???
pergaulan macam mana? makanan macam mana?
dihitung dikira dan dibilang..banyak benda sebenarnya..
sebab ISLAM IS THE WAY OF LIFE...
kita ada law and aour manual according to AL-QURAN , ASSUNNAH>>
and really is man always forgetting, need to be refreshing and updating the IMAAN INSIDE..
what is the important is the faith within...
we cannot and should not be judgemental...
look others through his/her outfit..dressing and so on...
tetapi untuk muslimah .. boleh nampak yan faham ke tidak konsep menutup aurat..tetapi still benda lain kena jaga juga...
bukan nak jadi baik semata tetapi nak jadi terbaik untuk MARDHATILLAH
ana pun da zaman gelap..
from short sleeves to long sleeves
from tudung kecik lagi nipis to tebal dan besar..
dari tak berstokin ke berstokin..
dari pernah amik duit umi abah kepad atidak (nakal toll la!!)
westlife blue..sume ade...dengar jugak sikit-sikit..
malas solat...
BERUBAH setelah punya KEFAHAMAN..
bukanlah diasah dari sesaat sahaja..
its takes time but it worth you forever...
ILMU mana nak carik??
fikirkanlah..sudah banyak terbentang..internet..radio..tv...surau..banyak sangat..BUKU..(love the most)..ustaz ustazah, sahabat, rakan yang soleh/solehah...
risau bila mana ALLAH tak nak ketuk hati kita lagi macam mana??
kita tidak akan sempurna...tetapi boleh menghampiri kesempurnaan...
dihitung dibilang dikira..banyak beda lagi tak settle...tapi daripada tak buat semua buat sikit-sikit..cuba..
ayat tak ikut skema..MAAF T_T

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

another picture~ credites to al-akh fadhli ilias

please click this picture to make it larger ^^
and for better image and reso please go to

Monday, March 8, 2010

AMAL- wasilah kerinduan, FAMILY DAY-ukhuwah dieratkan ^^


bismillahi walhamdulillah

berkesempatan ke Family Day AMAL Lembah Klang di Taman Tasik Titiwangsa, Ahad lepas.

^^ alhamdulillah, gembira sekali bertemu sahabat-sahabat terutamanya classmate 5 Sc 2 dulu...ana N.A.I.B.A.H kelas. pakai tudung pink gi sekolah ^^ macam Puteri Islam ...
alfun mabruk buat Lajnah Kampus + Lajnah Aktiviti (lajnah ana la tu ^^) AMAL. setinggi jutaan terima kasih bagi 70 sahabat yang hadir. teristimewa buat Presiden AMAL yang sanggup turun menjengah KL pada hari itu. penghargaan buat izzudin sebagai pengangkutan. hisyam as leader, kak zikiriah, penjaga-penjaga check point! sahabat-sahabat maahadians-UNIKL, UIA, USIM, UITM, DQ, UKM, UM,UPM, dll. yang bawa family : ustaz soleh

kami berpuas hati...
aktivitinya bermula pada pukul 10.30 kerana menunggu ketibaan sahabat-sahabat
kami berexplorace hari itu (walaupun pakai baju kurung ^^)
sungguh nostalgik tatkala diarahkan menyanyi nasyiidussobah...Lagu rasmi thobur!!

tertarik pada ucapan Presiden, ayat yang dipetik beliau dari surah al-kahfi, 13-14
dan al-anfal 63

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

wo ganmao le!

bismillahi walhamdulillah
da lama tak update
it feel like my world upside down.....
pray for me ok?? ^^
wo ganmao le!
ana dah selesema!
running nose + cough + fatigue
just a flu..
to wash my heart and to be the kaffarah of my sins ..insya Allah

peace no war ^^

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

simple story



the future occupational therapist on the board....sedia menggegar dunia!



saifullah+adam+adib dah pegi sekolah ^^



ni masa lawatan kat MAB (malaysian association of blind)
10/2/2010



i bought a new pencil case..and it is hello kitty also it is PINK!
classmate pakat tak caye ana belik kaler ni !!



test mr .JAYA will be at 12/2/2010 : this friday !!!!!



the always comeyh tomeyh little thumbellinas :D

Monday, February 8, 2010

the flowers are blossoming :D





bismillahi walhamdulillah..


they were so tiny with weight less than 1.6 kilograms. fighting for life and death in the incubator, keep striving day by day. Once, my mak su was cried alone in the hospital waiting for her little thumbellinas.

they are prematured babies, were born after 7 months of my mak su's pregnancy. later on, sleeping in the artificial womb about two months. it is stressful enough for my ayah su's family. we count day by day, waiting for the time the little princesses can be discharged from NICU (neonates intensive care unit). sacrifice money, time and feeling just for the thumbellinas.

THE FLOWERS ARE BLOSSOMING..


the are now 10 months years old !! subhanallah... believe it or not...they keep growing actively. little asma and little husna, non-identical twins that have totally different characters even they share the same birthday. asma is more passive compare to husna, she just cry when she was hungry while husna tend to cry anytime when she wants :D. asma is the kind sister ^^ for husna. the two flowers for me are priceless, hope that they will keep blossoming to be the mujahidah~ INSYA ALLAH :)

WELCOME TO THE WORLD!


AHLAN WASAHLAN i greet to NURUL AUNI KHALISYAH BINTI ABU DZARR, my cousin's (kak anis) first princess. little auni is 4 days old today :). i'm glad to hear kak anis's voice when i called her last night. she is so happy for being a mother.

LET THE FLOWERS BLOSSOM...

MAY ALLAH BLESS ~
THE LIGHT OF THE MOST PRECIOUS HAPPINESS








Monday, February 1, 2010

tears and me

i like it when i cry,
my tears make me feel relief,
with tears I FEEL THAT ALLAH IS ALWAYS BY MY SIDE
seriously,
i like to cry,
but not in front of people,
i cry in my heart,
i cry n my prayer
la haula wala quwwata illa billah...

i like it when i cry,
i like it when i feel sad,
i like it i'm in bad feeling,
because i know that Allah loves me..

life is always full of suspens,sudden and immediate...
when my tears is falling down,
i keep remember and remind what i have done,

for the lot of mistake and the wrong path that I choose.

ALLAH'S LOVE...
for the one who always hope and seek for it....

~ the light of the most precious happiness~ (nursa'idah nafisa)

turki " negara dua wajah"

bismillahi walhamdulillah...

pagi ini, masih putarannya seperti biasa, doaku dan harapanku, moga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam. seusai mathurat dan doa, buku baru dibeli " Turki: Negara Dua Wajah" oleh Dr. Abdullah Azzam dicapai. Elok lagi buku ini, dek kerana tuannya yang tidak pernah menyelak helaiannya. ^_^
pengantar penerbit dibaca sebagai muqaddimah bacaan, sungguh di untaian kata penerbit sudah menerbitkan rasa semahunya menghabiskan buku ini. insya Allah.

sedikit dari buku ini:

mustafa kamal attartuk, suatu nama yang telah meruntuhkan Khalifah uthmaniyyah, berakhirnya daulah Islamiyyah.

WHAT WAS HE DONE ????


  1. meruntuhkan istitusi waqaf dan ulama dan diletakkan dibawah pengurusan kementerian agama
  2. pengharaman tariqat tasawwuf.
  3. tulisan jawi diharamkan digantikan ke tulisan roman.
  4. pengharaman sonkok dan tudung
  5. undang-undang keluarga digantikan dengan undang - undang swiss
  6. gerakan pembaratan
  7. dan banyak lagi....
ini hanyalah sedikit contoh dari banyaknya jenayah mustafa kamal dan konco-konconya.
realitinya, tempiasnya apa yang berlaku ada di Malaysia (tidak sedikit pun banyak)

keagungan Islam diletakkan serendah-rendahnya sebagai urusan agama dan ritual semata-mata sedangkan Islam itu adalah sebagai cara hidup.

imbasan sekilas pada diri ini, sudah cukup terjaga dari lenakah diriku ini???

"janji ALLAH itu PASTI, ISLAM pasti DIJULANG KEMBALI"

An Nashr (Pertolongan)

01 Apabila datang pertolongan Allah dan kemenangan (semasa engkau wahai Muhammad berjaya menguasai negeri Makkah), -
02 Dan engkau melihat manusia masuk dalam ugama Allah beramai-ramai, -
03 Maka ucapkanlah tasbih dengan memuji Tuhanmu dan mintalah ampun kepadaNya, sesungguhnya Dia amat menerima taubat.

"Cita-citaku,
ISLAM gemilang,
cita-citaku,
daulahnya menjulang"

KEEP THE FAITH


~MAY ALLAH BLESS~
the light of the most precious happiness (sa'idah nafisa)





Friday, January 29, 2010

tinta dari sahabatku yang jauh ~ az~missing her...

Manusia akan terus berjaya selagimana ia meletakkan dirinya didalam agama.
.walaupun bukan kejayaan didunia,
namun akhirat tetap menanti kerana itulah kejayaan hakiki..
Sebaliknya andai manusia menjauhkan diri dari agamanya sendiri,
ia akan terus binasa walaupun kejayaan dunia sedang dikecapinya namun itu bukanlah yg kekal abadi~

ana bukan pelajar UIA, DQ, USIM jadi?

Bismillahi walhamdulillah...

restless and fatigue...alhamdulillah... class started at 8.30-12.30...then i attended New Moon Recipe of Women (women's Friday lecture) until 2.00 p.m,,,then,helping PRM (Persatuan Rakan Masjid) to settled up the place, next attended Meeting of our Course's Society PPPCK....it is already 5 that I reached my room......

people always tend to mistakenly think that I'm UIA/DQ/USIM student...

" akak duk Uia kan sekarang ?"
they look at my appearance......still with tudung labuh, jubah@baju kurung

i'm just give a plastic smile...and answer..

" tak la..UITM"... you see...UITM.... it is not Universiti ISLAM Teknologi MARA.....

at the first time I got the offer to being here, 2 years ago.....that time I was participated as the facilitator for Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar Baru (MPPB) 2 years Program (Program Dua Tahun (PDT)) at KMNS. all of us (the faci at my batch) feel so nervous that day. me too! i'm so afraid to check the online result....then, lastly, i do it , and the result made me feel so cloudy..and the other senior faci can see my expression...and they gave me the support...

yes, i got the Program that i love and fond to " Occupational Therapy", but...the first think that lingering in my mind is " how can I survive for being in UITM?"

People's STIGMA...

"UITM tu sosial sangat?"
" Couple sana sini"?
" low standard uni?"

and at last I came to this UNI.....with a tremble heart,and i wanna cry that time...but luckily, i have my parent's blessing and family support.

YOU and What YOU THINK!!!! YOU CHOOSE!

ME, PAST AND PRESENT

and yet, i'm still me, being in this place, is not bad at all. as long as you try to adapt with the biiah (suasana), you have ISLAM in your and SPREAD IT to others!!

all of the knowledge, the theory that ustaz+ustazah gave, apply it!...and yet, i'm not perfect either,...

being in stranger's place, me and myself try to adapt to the environment.....being in in ISLAMIC UNI @ NO ISLAMIC UNI,,,IT IS JUST THE SAME...

when i was young, my dream is want to further my study at UIA, the garden of knowledge and virtue,,there are the safer place for me......

but, ALLAH'S PLAN IS THE BEST!

HE placed me at UITM, the uni that I do not want to go....

as time goes on, alhamdulillah, i'm still me...i 'm hope the others MAAHADIANS, MSMIANS are better than me..

there is no matter, where we are, but, we still be ourselves! we have learn religion, ('aqidah, fiqh, tauhid, feqah,nahusoraf, sirah) more than others....here that we want to apply it!

we have left the school, but the TARBIYYAH, still remains in our HEART!

ustaz, ustazah, cikgu, cikgi,
syukran jaziilan kathiira,
hanya ALLAH mampu membalas jasa kalian.

sahabat,
pertahankan apa yang kamu fahami, apa yang kamu pegang,selagi mana kamu mampu..
LA HAULA WALA QUWWATA ILLA BILLAH!


MAY ALLAH BLESS,,
~the light of the most precious happiness~

Thursday, January 28, 2010

BARAKALAHU LAKUMA

We're here on this special day
Our hearts are full of pleasure
A day that brings the two of you
Close together
We're gathered here to celebrate
A moment you'll always treasure
We ask Allah to make your love
Last forever

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير
بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير
From now you'll share all your chores
Through heart-ship to support each other
Together worshipping Allah
Seeking His pleasure

We pray that He will fill your life
With happiness and blessings
And grants your kids who make your home
Filled with laughter

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

بارك الله
بارك الله لكم ولنا

الله بارك لهما
الله أدم حبهما
الله صلّي وسلّم على رسول الله

الله تب علينا
الله ارض عنا
الله اهد خطانا
على سنة نبينا

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

I dedicated this song to my sahabat (x-kmns) that will become zauj-to-be....next 2 weeks Insya Allah......biiznillah...
Allah showed him the way~alhamdulillah..~among us, he is the first muslimin (after husna) that will be enter into the new phase of life..marriage.. BARAKALLAHU LAKUMA~

sebak rasa terbuku di dada.. mata berpasir - pasir dan berkaca....

lewat sms diterima........mahirah dan ana masing-masing berkongsi rasa...

ana: nape rasa sebak ea anti???

mahirah : rasa sebak untuk seorang sahabat...yang bakal memikul tanggung jawab baru ...


ana : rasa sebak sebab terlalu gembira untuk dia...


2 years....we left the matriculation...a lot of memories that coloured the canvas of life....
and yet,,,I'm still missing the atmosphere...

ridhuwan
fadhil
rasyadan
hizami
firdaus
firdauz
kamarul
razali

saidah
mahirah
asyura
hidayah
intan
fasihah
amalina
aimi
atiqah
husna

who will be the next apprentice??? ^_^

choosing marriage instead of couple is THE BEST and HALAL way...

sms ditaip lagi..

ana : kita bila nti?

mahirah: ntah, nak tunggu khairul azzam (KETIKA CINTA BERTASBIH
)

~dan masing-masing tertawa sendiri~ :D


dan hati masih sebak...

we are adult....tak macam dulu lagi....no more 1 at the front.. all begin with 2...we already 21....and should be...we are mature enuff (even sometime, perangai lama still ade :D)

rindu nak dengar nasihat mahirah,
rindu nak cakap dengan asyu
rindu nak gelak dengan intan (kita sama2 poyo kan ?)
rindu nak bual dengan hidayah
rindu nak dengar celoteh che ah
rindu nak tengok aimi
rindu nak chat dengan husna di Mesir
rindu nak jumpa ama...
rindu nak tatap Tiqah

it is not perfect, but I have a great time...

rasyadan comes awhile then migrate to usim...
ridhuwan, the Exco Kerohanian JPP, always with his masjid team
fadhil and his voice..
aimerul and his slumberr
kamarul and his maturity
hizami and his silence
daus and his economy
dauz dat always fight with me
razali and his discipline...





Monday, January 25, 2010

its MONDAY~the first day of the forth week~

bismillahi walhamdulillah...

i'm just back from a meeting~alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hall~

the class is going smoothly like usual....mandarin + ot peadiatric assessment+ research methodology~

research methodology....i got another assignment to be submitted to MR. Jaya...."Explain the study design"

mandarin class, we move to chapter 3 and 4 and also the review of the first & 2nd chapter,,,the class ending with singing a song~ ai..yo mama...(the song is originally P.Ramli's song..which 1 ..i dunno)..nest week will be mandarin 1st test......


in ot assessment of peadiatric, class ended earlier, mis Liz gave a brief review abaut final exam paper (like it is near to the exam.......T_T)


last night, i 'm really miss my sahabiah....really miss them...


they who were my friends since in primary and secondary school also in matriculation........all of them keep lingering in my mind...


separation does not mean there is end in a relationship.......it made our bon stronger...

what is ukhuwwah actually???

it is when you remeber your friend in doa....

it is when you can husnuzzon with the person...

it is when you love the person more than you love yourself...

" la yu'minu ahadukum hatta yuhibba li akhiihi ma yuhibbu linafsihi"

it is not easy..but it is possible,,

sincerety and pure intention....

sahabat, does not mean that you must always contact together....but Allah who the one that tighten the bonding..
really....

i'm always thinking and feel that i'm not being a good sahabat enough,,,asiif jiddan kathiira....






Saturday, January 23, 2010

for all zaujah in the world~ outlandish...sakeena

[Isam]
This ain't a love song
This is a life song

Woman, u my equal, my wife
We be tight like
2 perfectly matching calligraphy lines

We don't wanna build our house of earth, water and stone
But of wisdom, pure intentions, conversation
Compassionate action, with purity of heart
We might get somewhere, become light
Fast and burn like a candle, right
Intertwine, u give me peace of mind
I cloak u and u cloak me
Responsible I feel with honesty
Between us God has put affection and mercy
Praised be He who created u
Cuz all I see in u is beautiful

Woman, u my equal, my wife
We be tight like
2 perfectly matching calligraphy lines
What drew us together
Doesn't conform to the laws of nature
It is written
There is only One opener for the lock of these things

[Lenny]
Amor mío
Te adora como a la más bella estrella fugaz en el cielo
Y cuando me siento sólo, sé que tú me entiendes
Sé que me comprendes
Sueño apoyarme en tu sonrisa
Toma mi mano y ven de prisa
Siempre me imagino Viejo y arrugado
Mis hijos ya crecidos mis nietos a mi lado
Y la luz de luna a revelado
Que tu palpitar es por mi, que siempre a sido asi
He practicado que decir muchas veces
Y cuando Dios lo quiera estaremos frente a frente
Será el momento de embrujarte
Ojalá que en tus ojos me retrates
Que aceptes mi pasado, que mis locuras yo no pague
Yo te prometere mi vida
Aunque la muerte nos separe

Translation:
[My dearest
I adore you like the most beautiful shooting star in the sky
And when I feel alone I know that you understand me
I know that you comprehend me
I'm looking for comfort in your smile
Let's hurry, follow me
'Cuz I've always seen myself old and aged
My children grown up, grandchildren by my side
And the moonlight has revealed
That your heart beats for me
And it has always been like that
I've practised what to say many times
When God is willing
We'll stand face to face
That will be the moment to put a spell on you
If only I could slide into your eyes
If only you would see through the past
If only I don't have to pay for my peculiarities
I'll dedicate my life to you
Even after death will separate us]

Woman, u my equal, my wife
We be tight like
2 perfectly matching calligraphy lines
What drew us together
Doesn't conform to the laws of nature
It is written
There is only One opener for the lock of these things

Most definitely in our luv are signs of knowledge
Every dime I spend on u
Is worth more than what I spend on the poor
See patience is the best key to happiness
Continuous, satisfaction, pearls wanna be like u
Intertwine, u are my Sakeena
U protect me and I protect u
Scientifically we be deeper than Al-kindi
Between us God has put affection and mercy
This ain't a luv song
This is a life song

[Waqas]
We going 6 years strong
With no sign of regret
With each year we gain in force with ups and downs of course
Yeah my wife is my cousin
And thank God, Faizan my son was born without complications
Hina my love to you is unconditional
Not limited by typical Bollywood scenarios
Or by statistics when problems occur we leave
'Cause I know t u´ll stay till I no longer will breathe
Or if I'm crippled, blinded or anything else
I know I can rely on u helping my every step
Love is not just limited to butterflies and sex
It's to recognise and respect each others intellects
Lots of regrets many things we shouldn't have said and done
But that's just part of our journey and it's just begun
Define beauty 'cause one day looks will fade
But a beautiful mind still be young at an old age
And I know it's hard me being away for so long
But I respect u so much for being so strong
I remember U being pregnant going to school
Cooking food taking care of my parents and the whole house
All in one something a man could never do no doubt
So I thank my mother for the day she brought us together
And I pray for our reunion in the afterlife forever

Woman, u my equal, my wife
We be tight like
2 perfectly matching calligraphy lines
What drew us together
Doesn't conform to the laws of nature
It is written
There is only One opener for the lock of these things

http://www.lyricsdownload.com/outlandish-sakeena-lyrics.html

Friday, January 22, 2010

sebenarnya CINTA itu apa sih????

* entri ini, adalah satu perkongsian melihat kepada pengalaman

kawan 1:" saidah, ada orang nak nombor hp saidah boleh?"
(ana blank sekejap)......

kawan 2:"saidah da orang nak kenal dengan awak boleh?" (ana kaget seketika)......

pening kepala ana.....kenapa tiba-tiba ni???

ini hanyalah contoh, realiti...bukan mahu mempromosi diri ni ea....(minta betulkan kefahaman)

bila meningkat dewasa, ianya fitrah, to loved and to be loved by somebody...ianya lumrah kehidupan...

(dipetik dari Ketika Cinta Bertasbih 1)

sebenarnya cinta itu apa sih??

cinta adalah kekuatan,
yang mampu mengubah duri menjadi mawar,
mengubah cuka jadi anggur,
mengubah malang menjadi untung,
mengubah sedih jadi riang,
mengubah syaitan menjadi nabi,
mengubah iblis menjadi malaikat,
mengubah sakit menjadi sihat,
mengubah bakhil menjadi dermawan,
mengubah kandang menjadi taman,
mengubah penjara menjadi istana,
mengubah amarah menjadi ramah,
mengubah musibah menjadi............

sekalipun cinta telah kuuraikan,
dan kujelaskan panjang lebar,
namun juga cinta kelihatan,
aku jadi malu pada keteranganku sendiri,
meskipun lidahku telah mampu menguraikan,
namun tanpa lidah cinta ternyata lebih senang,
sementara pena begitu saja saling menuliskan,
kata-kata pecah berkeping-keping begitu sampai kepada cinta,
dalam menguraikan cinta,
akal terbaring tak berdaya,
bagaikan keldai berbaring dalam rumput,
cinta sendirilah yang menerangkan cinta dan perspektifnya...

fitrah vs fitnah???

salah ke suka pada seseorang?

no..tak salah..tetapi kena betul caranya.....^_^

one fine day,,talk sambil makan dengan kak M di PSB...entah kenapa tiba-tiba keluar topik hangat ni...

kak M : bek elak awal-awal la ek?

saie: ea la.....tengok kondisi kita camana... dah sedia ke? famili camana? orang tu plak camana? penuhi kriteria ke tak? at least boleh jadi imam, boleh bimbing bab agama,
appearance+money....lain cerita...

kak M : susah dah cari orang gitu sekang ini...

saie: memang susah tapi insya ALLAH ada... (dalam hati yaqin confidently, INSYA ALLAH ADA!!). tak mahu la...buat cara ALLAH tak suka....bimbang affect family yang akan dibina nanti..

kak M : kira zina hati la saidah?

saie : ha ah....tapi kita as perempuan la kena kuat...if rs belum masanya lagi...pertimbangkan sebaiknya..

kak M angguk-angguk...kami sambung lunch...

(the rest is not previewed here)

muslimah mu'minah: kerana dirimu begitu berharga

dari ustazah khamariah:

"orang perempuan kena jaga diri dia....budak-budak laki ni memang nakal.. kadang-kadang nak test shj"

dah banyak case study yang dibuat dan boleh kita observe sendiri....dan memang betul...
"kalau JODOH tak KEMANA"
......

dari ayat-ayat cinta...

kamu percaya sama jodoh???

"NIKAH: CONNECTING PEOPLE"...

"tak maula buat benda ALLAH tak suka....ISLAM dah bagi cara yang terbaik tao"
~JAGA BATAS PERGAULAN, IKHTILAT & SABAR, THE TIME WILL BE COME SOONER OR LATER~


SAYANG ALLAH DULU.....
SAYANG RASUL JUGA...
SAYANG FAMILY...
SAYANG DIRI SENDIRI...
SAYANG SAHABAT-SAHABAT....(TEGUR KAWAN-KAWAN!)







3 weeks story~ part 1~

* this entry is totally for my mumbling, min qalbi dedicated to my beloves person especially my family..., as a reminder to all friends, sahabat - sahabiah, it is just a pieces of story that lingering in my mind since 3 weeks in puncak...not so full with 'ilmu and knowledge"..but just a sharing because sharing is always caring and loving.
(tidak berkaitan dengan yang hidup ataupun yang telah mati)

bismillahi walhamdullillah
this room is silent+peace~love alone, silent and peace~

its already 3 weeks of lectures...dadada...yadada..blablala..and today, i feel a little bit of released and reliefed alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal. last night JPK's meeting end about 11.40 p.m..then around 12.00 I went back to A1406 straight away. a little bit of fatigue caused i went to shah alam earlier (after class)...shopping there with mai (my housemate), actually,we are not really shopping it is more to walking and exercises :).. since that we were hunting and searching for just 10 of empty DvDs....initially the intention is to go to Tabung Haji to open my new account, but, it's already near to 4.15 when i reached there. tabung haji want to shut down its business...then arrived at puncak about maghrib,, ustaz iqbal (imam of our musolla) and jemaah was praying. his voice read da surah surrond the environment. i'm done maghrib and isya' jemaah with my housmates,, and went to JPK's meeting.

every thing happened was so fast!!

lectures and lab every weeks. this semester i have 7 subjects which are:
  1. research methodology
  2. special education
  3. pharmacology in rehabilitation
  4. ot intervention for paediatrics
  5. ot assessment for paediatrics
  6. community based rehab
  7. mandarin (the most enjoyable subject, learn with no burden at all)
5 days a week, 3 of 5 days; class end at 6.30. but tuesday we just got 1 lecture :) but the other days ...huhuhu

accept it saie...its what we call learning!

learning, ta'allum minalmahdi ilallahdi!



my friend(fifa) told me and i'm very surprises but happy for the words after we was chatting by heart recently...
" saidah, you make my day"

fifa.....i'll always keep this word in my hippocampus...we are like "sama tapi tak serupa"...or

Hlovate said "same boat but different cabin"(i'm hlovate addicted)"~ rooftop rant~

back to the story....

i called abah past few days:

kakok: assalamu'alaikum,can i talk to che abdullah plizz (speaking with abah)

abah : yes,

kakok : what r u doing?

abah : watching tv...(abah is rarely watching TV except of news, wrestling, and da latest is da korean drama, "east of eden")

kakok: abah chat?(already change da langguage..^_^)

abah : alhamdulillah tapi demam sket (abah not so always but always demam + cough)

kakok: gi ngajar tak? (abah is a teacher)

abah : gi...(he loves his student)

kakok: abah makan ubat tak ?

abah : macam biasa , minum madu
(abah dislike conventional mesd and drugs.. and he always be like that taking madu
kismis , eat talbinah and so on)

ummi da kerja,,,kakok tao ke?

kakok : kerja ape? tok tao...

abah : buat roti and pizza and yang sewaktu dengannya (the ayat was restructured)

kakok: ummi da pandai wat pizza la?

abah : ya la.....



i'm happy for that....missing home...and homey surrounding even its just a wooden house.....baiti jannati...

alhamdulillah even i'm NOT born with a silver spoon, everything i want to, i must try to get it myself...

solat jemaah is always (when abah is arround), after maghrib recite al-quran.... but my family is not perfect either...but in some extends..hard make us stronger...

life is always be like a bed of roses and a bunch of thorns.......because always give a test to increase our imaan...insya allah


ayah su called last weeks...(he is mu guardian at all...)
i listened to him silently, obediently, focusing on what he talking about...

"remember our family, our family is not so big enough and yet not so small, i want you to go to higher level, i believe that you can go further, i see you grown up, i want you to be the best ! continue your good that you do "

my tears want to dropped...tahan saie...tahan..

"okey syah su, insya Allah"

and i know that he is a little bit dissapointed with me.....

i flash back my life,,, remembering the present,,....alhamdulillah...

HE IS ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME....ALLAHU RABBI

we feel fatigue, restlessness, sad, blurr..gloomy......

but its all back to ALLAH...

sometime we do a big also small mistake...

sometime we choose the wrong path...

it is not wrong for you to cry, then wipe your tears then move on again~~~

HE KNOWES BEST...
WALLAHU KHAIRUL MAAKIRIN~~~ALLAH'S PLAN IS THE BEST~

don't give a word that you cannot work for it.....because every words is promise~and we'll be asked for the promise~

actually...WE ARE ALWAYS IN ALLAH'S LOVE~ BELIVE IT OR NOT? BELIEVE IT..

colour our canvas of life with IMAAN + TAQWA...

" allahumma inna nasaluka hubbaka, wa hubba man yuhibbuka, wal'amalulladzi yuballighuna hubbak"

"ya ALLAH kami meminta CINTA-MU, da cinta orang yang menCINTAI-MU dan amal yang menyampaikan CINTA-MU kepada kami" (sila betulkan if tersalah maksud =)









Sunday, January 3, 2010

roti gosong

Ketika aku masih anak perempuan kecil, ibu suka membuat sarapan dan makan malam...

Dan suatu malam, setelah ibu sudah membuat sarapan, bekerja keras sepanjang hari, malamnya menghidangkan sebuah piring berisi telur, saus dan roti panggang yang gosong di depan meja ayah...

Saya ingat, saat itu menunggu apa reaksi dari orang-orang di situ..!!!

Akan tetapi, yang dilakukan ayah adalah mengambil roti panggang itu, tersenyum pada ibu, dan menanyakan kegiatan saya di sekolah...


Saya tidak ingat apa yang dikatakan ayah malam itu, tetapi saya melihatnya mengoleskan mentega dan selai pada roti panggang itu dan menikmati setiap gigitannya!! !


Ketika saya beranjak dari meja makan malam itu, saya mendengar ibu meminta maaf pada ayah karena roti panggang yang gosong itu.....
Dan satu hal yang tidak pernah saya lupakan adalah apa yang ayah katakan: "Sayang, aku suka roti panggang yang gosong."

Sebelum tidur, saya pergi untuk memberikan ciuman selamat tidur pada ayah.... Saya bertanya apakah ayah benar-benar menyukai roti panggang gosong.?
Ayah memeluk saya erat dengan kedua lengannya yang kekar dan berkata,
"Debbie, ibumu sudah bekerja keras sepanjang hari ini dan dia benar-benar lelah. Jadi sepotong roti panggang yang gosong tidak akan menyakiti siapa pun!".

Apa yang saya pelajari di tahun-tahun berikutnya adalah belajar untuk menerima kesalahan orang lain, dan memilih untuk merayakan "perbedaan" adalah satu kunci yang sangat penting untuk menciptakan sebuah hubungan yang sehat, bertumbuh dan abadi.

credits to kak has yang bagi emel ini,


Saturday, January 2, 2010

review 2009, suatu muhasabah

bismillahi walhamdulillah,

putaran masa seperti tabi'inya, detik demi detik, minit ke minit, jam bartukar jam, hari berganti bulan, dan sungguh benar kata-kata ALLAH,

"Demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia didalam kerugian"
(al-'Asr-1)


2009 kini hanya tinggal SEJARAH,
baik manis yang dirasai , baik yang pahit untuk ditelan, semuanya bercampur baur menjadi perisa kehidupan.

diari tahunan ana, terhias lembar demi lembar dengan catatan penuh pengertian. menulis dari hati, nafas seolah tersekat, bagaimana untuk dimulakan,kenangan tergambar diingatan, tersimpan di pengkalan data Hippocampus.

dan sungguh, ianya memberi satu pengalaman, mematangkan fikiran, merasionalkan minda agar apa yang mendatang dapat diharungi dengan TENANG.

2009,
tahun bermulanya dekad kedua hidup ana,tiada lagi angka 1 didepan, bukan lagi belasan, dan sepatutnya tidak lagi bersikap seperti budak hingusan.

resolusi dari 2009:
memperbaiki hubungan dengan ILAHI agar meningkatnya IMUNITI DIRI.


gambar sekitar 2009.


~walimah sahabiah/sepupu~

~asma' zinnirah, husna insyirah~(permata ayah su)
^^ana tumpang gembira^^



adik-adik,yang selalu ana rindu

kata sahabiahku Mahirah " sedih simpan di HATI, gembira juga simpan di HATI".

RINGKASNYA....

UJIAN...
alhamdulillah, kerana bila diuji, hati berdetik yaqin " ALLAH selalu ada bersamaku"


sekeping HATI.
mungkin besarnya hanya segenggam lima jari, tetapi ia mengawal seluruh diri.

"ketenangan terletak di HATI, hanya pada HATI yang dekat pada ILAHI"

Alam Nasyrah (Bukankah Kami Telah Melapangkan)
  1. 094:001 Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan bagimu: dadamu (wahai Muhammad serta mengisinya dengan iman dan hidayah petunjuk)?
  2. 094:002 Dan Kami telah meringankan daripadamu: bebanmu (menyiarkan Islam) -
  3. 094:003 Yang memberati tanggunganmu, (dengan memberikan berbagai kemudahan dalam melaksanakannya)?
  4. 094:004 Dan Kami telah meninggikan bagimu: sebutan namamu (dengan mengurniakan pangkat Nabi dan berbagai kemuliaan)?
  5. 094:005 Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan,
  6. 094:006 (Sekali lagi ditegaskan): bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan.
  7. 094:007 Kemudian apabila engkau telah selesai (daripada sesuatu amal soleh), maka bersungguh-sungguhlah engkau berusaha (mengerjakan amal soleh yang lain),
  8. 094:008 Dan kepada Tuhanmu sahaja hendaklah engkau memohon (apa yang engkau gemar dan ingini).

(ASY-SYARH,1-8)